My biggest regret in life was never being able to tell my first love why I suddenly ghosted him. We were in a long distance relationship and had to communicate through an online platform. Despite this I felt a very deep connection to him. When I was unfairly punished by my Dad because of lies he was told about me and denied access to this platform for several months, I was unable to actually tell him what happened. I feel awful and I’m afraid that he might hate me for it. Maybe now he doesn’t even remember me. But I definitely remember him and I tried locating him on the same platform several years later but to no avail. It really makes me sad knowing I will probably never be able to tell him what happened. Even if he’s gotten over me, or doesn’t care, or doesn’t remember I still feel like I owe him this explanation.