I regret marrying my first three wives.
I regret allowing something I will never be able to control dictate my decisions in life. Constantly stepping down from the things I want to do because I’m scared of a seizure that might not even happen today.
I regret not finishing school. I thought I was punishing my parents, but I actually hurt myself in so many ways and for so many, many years. I have been able to get really good jobs that paid well, but I could of done so much better. While it proved to me that I am actually very smart, I so deeply regret of not listening to my parents. I also carry the fear of people finding out I never finished school. They think I am smart. At my age trying to finish school is just not going to happen. I could of had a much, much better life and not the struggle I have now. I should of made it happen. I screwed myself. Big time.
My secret regret was listening to a High School Counselor who told me that I would never make it thorough Veterinary School because I had a solid C math average but an A/B average in my other subjects.
I regret not listening to both of my parents and NOT believing that I was smart enough to do college and Veterinary school.
My self esteem was horrible and I didn’t believe that I was smart enough or even worthy.
I settled and went to college and landed in jobs that I have hated but stayed because of the money.
Because I settled for a lesser college education, jobs and later men, I have NEVER had the amazing career or life that I could have had!
Looking back I know I would have made a wonderful Veterinarian and ended up with a job I love!
I regret having 2 abortions. The father was a really nice guy, but at the time I was embarrassed to be seen with him. The choice was ours to do this, but it was heartbreaking to have done something like this. Looking back I would rather have kept the babies and just love them. It is almost impossible to forgive myself. I say “almost” impossible because I am told I can forgive myself, but I do not know how. To me, this was the worst thing I ever did, yet here I am alive and not them. It just isn’t right. I hope posting here will help me forgive myself for such a horrible thing. I was too young to make a smart decision. I need to live again, and forgive myself. It has been 40 years… of torture inside me.
I regret not having the heart I have now, when I was younger. I regret allowing myself to be manipulated by society to think my choices were not ok. I regret the fear instilled within me because I was denying myself my true path. I regret not being closer to my parents, and loving them like they deserved. I regret peer pressure I was not smart enough to deny. I regret not being true to myself and not standing up for myself.
The biggest regret I have in my life, is not having children.
I always expected a family could wait until later in life.
But later never came …
When I was ready to have children, I was still single.
Unfortunately, I never met the ideal person with whom to start a family.
Then I became too old to have children.
Being childless is by far the most upsetting regret I have in my life.
I regret staying in the relationship I’m currently in. I regret internalizing every negative comment he makes, every name he calls me, every nasty thing he says to me. I regret not leaving him because of our child, I don’t know why i think I can change him or believe him when he says he will change. I regret sitting at home blaming myself when he’s out “doing him”, because I know exactly what he’s doing. I regret wasting 7 years of my life on a man who doesn’t even deserve 1. I regret not listening to my mom when she tells me that I deserve better because i know she’s right. I regret not having the courage or the strength to walk away. I regret a lot of things, but mostly I regret not loving myself enough to know better.
I regret watching the disappointment I’ve become from the sidelines, like there isn’t anything I can do to stop it.
My regret is drinking every day after I had my 3rd child and not paying attention to him. It kills me everyday. It took a stroke to get me to stop.