Today’s Secret Regret

“The only things that hurt worse than the things people do to you, are the things you do to other people. I know, I’ve been on both ends. I was bullied quite a lot in my early and mid teens, and life was hell. When I was 17 – 18 I started trying to have a social life. I was a naive and foolish kid, and I drank too much and I behaved really rudely and obnoxiously to some other kids my age. I regret my obnoxious behavior much more than the hurt of being bullied. I always wanted to be a good person, and I hate the thought of really offending anyone. That hurts me more than anything that was done to me, and awful things were done to me. “

Today’s Secret Regret

“My biggest regret is me. I never ever paid attention to myself. I learned how to please everyone and fit in everywhere until I ceased to exist. I cannot reveal my true self because I don’t know what its like. I never made an effort to form relationships that enriched me, made me happy rather I did what I could to avoid being lonely. And still ended up alone.”

Today’s Secret Regret

“I have lived a lie of a life for a decade, in a country I do not want, with a man I do not love, a child I regret having but feel bound to take care. I went through this on auto-pilot whilst trying not to breakdown from an anxiety disorder at work. A major breakdown and public humiliation shook me to core I woke up from this sleep, found my soul yearning for life and discovering feelings I had suppressed for years. Opportunities opened up to me, and for 2 years I shied away and realised what kept me in my dark dungeon was still there. I am still here, not living. I regret not growing when I had been reborn. Too scared to live, too scared to own my emotions – fears, hopes, dreams, hate and love.”

Today’s Secret Regret

“I regret not listening to my mom. IF ONLY I would have listened and stayed living with her instead of moving in with my dad, my life would be SO different. I could be a nurse like she wanted. Have a high school diploma instead of a GED. Went to a real college instead of an online one. Only married once instead of 4. Only had two children instead of 5. Things would have been so much easier. No PTSD, no depression, no anxiety. IF I HAD ONLY LISTENED TO MY MOM!”

Today’s Secret Regret

“I regret my last suicide attempt and that my kids were the ones who found me. Though, I am thankful that I was found in time. I hate what my struggle with mental illness has done to my amazing family. I regret the promise I made to myself and them to stand up against the skeptics and take a stand for other survivors. I regret that I never met CCS and SAM before they died. I regret the extramatrital relationships that I got involved in during my struggle with my illness. I regret that I allowed one my children to be the kind of caretaker I was with my mother before she died of cancer and the debilitating effects it is having on my daughter’s adult life now.”