SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 13, 2018

I witnessed my mom express more love towards everyone in my life than she ever expressed for me. I regret being alive long enough to notice that.

 

Advertisements

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 12, 2018

Hugh Hefner has died, and a New York Times review of his life really brought it back to my doorstep that I will never know the sexual freedom he lived and advocated.

I was raised in the South, very conservative and religious background. Waited to have sex until I was done with graduate school, “saved myself” for my marriage. Thirty years later still married to my sweetheart, my sole and only-ever sexual partner. Have been through some marital dry-spells, but sexually things have improved for us with time.

I regret never having shared a sexual experience with other people. Getting older and being in committed relationship with “open” relationship really out of the question, I know I will never have that experience with another human being. I mourn the opportunities lost, and imagining what the majority of other human beings have experienced, as forever out of my reach.

I fear that at the end of my days, I will have lived a sexual life very untrue to who I feel that I am. Maybe simply a “first world problem,” but I see it as a missed basic human experience that others have enjoyed and that has enriched lives.

 

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 8, 2018

I regret that it is a year ago today that I planned on proposing to you. I regret that you left me for an old boyfriend, someone I thought was my friend. I regret that you chose him and drugs over me. I regret that I still love you. I regret that I am still alive to see your life fall apart. I guess mainly I regret that I’m still alive. M/50

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 7, 2018

My first wife was a narcissist and used denial of sex and companionship as weapons. This made me an insecure male. Narcissists are very hard to spot – thankfully my lesson from the first marriage made the second marriage a dream. I was very lucky that my second wife saw the worth in me and has been patient with the aftermath of my first marriage.