SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 30, 2016

I regret opening my heart to her. I promised myself that I wouldn’t go through this pain again, but here I am. I thought she would be different. She seemed to be interested in me. I felt a connection between us. It was perfect. But, good things usually come to an end in my life. I’m mainly disappointed because of my inability to protect my heart. That hurts more than anything right now. I feel as if I’m only useful when it comes to making a person feel better. After that, I end up being abandoned. She abandoned me. What a vicious cycle.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 29, 2016

I regret letting all those bullies, many many years ago in primary grade all through high school (I’m now in my 40’s) shape and ruin my entire life. They were absolutely ruthless and never let up. I just wanted to die everyday. I still suffer with severe depression. They shaped my career, my parenting and everyday life…I don’t trust people, I have no friends, I shut people out, I only have a relationship with my two children and my dogs. I wish I received help so so much earlier, life would have had a different outcome. I am a loner…and so lonely.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 28, 2016

I regret letting myself love someone for so long who showed me time and time again he did not care about me. There were so many red flags that he was no good. I would sometimes get physically ill when we were together, as if my body was telling me he was not good for me. Love is truly blind in some cases. Although I learned a lot about myself and what I want out of a partner, I spent a couple years of my life on someone who did not deserve it. If there is anyone reading this who is debating weather to get out of a relationship or not, think long and hard about their impact on your life! Is it mostly positive or negative? I wish I had took the time to think clearly.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 26, 2016

My biggest regret in life is taking the ones who do truly love me for granted and those who do not giving them my time and effort. Allowing them to control my life and mold me into a person that I am not. I came to college to fulfill my dream and I got so caught up in trying to please one of my so called friends I lost all my dignity, principles, and morals. Why did I do it? How can I move on from what I did? No matter how hard I try to forget about what happened it’s always there at the back of my mind and I fear that one day it’s going to come back to haunt me. I feel so ashamed.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 25, 2016

I hate how every anniversary of my mother’s death i continue to lie under the same sorrow i feel for never having her touch, her embrace, her unconditional love and support. Why can’t i get over it? I want to tear away my heart and my feelings for feeling so alone, so depressed, so miserable, so used, so insignificant since the day she died 5 years ago. Now everything i do is a routine – wake up after 5 hours of sleep, go to school, go to work to ease a huge financial strain since her death, and put up a brave and happy face for my father back home when inside im so miserable. I’m trying to be a superwoman for my only family when deep inside i feel like an imposter. I don’t know what i want to do anymore. I just want to be content with my life but it’s so hard to pull myself away from the depression that i still continue to have even after all these years.I already feel like im secretly dying every day.

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SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 24, 2016

I regret not telling anyone I was abused as a child. I regret not telling my teacher, my sunday school teacher, my grandmother, anyone. Most of all, I regret not finding the courage to tell the police that everything my sister said was true when she ran away from home and letting them return her to that hell we called home.     F/42

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 23, 2016

I regret moving to another city with you and leaving after three days. It broke my heart leaving you there alone, especially after you put your life on hold for that moment. To this day I don’t know why I did it. Leaving you killed me inside, but I guess that I was afraid. Of what I don’t know because I loved you so much.

I wish I had you in front of me so that I could say how sorry I am. It’s been 13 years and I still can’t forgive myself. I’m sorry RL.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 21, 2016

I regret being impatient…believing at 18 there must be something wrong with me because I hadn’t fallen in love. So I pretended…..I lived with that pretence for over 15 years. I never admitted it but I gave you reason to be fed up with me …I blamed you for not being who I wanted you to be. A man I really did love.That wasn’t fair. Neither of us cheated…but we ended up tearing each other apart. ..I know you loved me with all your heart. You were frustrated …you did some things which can never be taken back and ended our marriage….. I lied to you and that is unforgivable. We have 3 kind intelligent wonderful adult children. I am so proud of who they are. …..
I regret hurting and blaming you. I regret what we ended up doing to each other. You have a new partner now and I am hopeful you share a genuine love for each other.I have been on my own for over 15 year and have recently said and meant those words to someone who said they couldn’t return them to me. It hurts even at my age but it’s ok. ..I can’t help but believe it’s what I deserve. ..F52

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 20, 2016

I regret that I did not get to know my older brother so well, as our childhood was scary, and when I was 16, he left home, and when I was in my teens I left home myself and went to live in another country. He died young of cancer and I never got to say I love you, and goodbye. I always regret what might have been.I always have a sadness about this.