“I regret not being mature and man enough to fight for you. I let a controlling and clinically depressed mother destroy us. After so many years, I still play the sound of your voice in my head. I miss our brutally honest talks and how that made us realize we were soul mates. We are both married and have moved on. I remember how sad we both were when we knew it was going to end and we talked about a reunion in Hawaii for some years after our inevitable break up. How sad.
My secret is that I think about you often,. I miss and still love you. You will always be the love of my life. I feel constant guilt about keeping that from my wife. Shes a good woman and a great mother.
Forgive me but I just love you still.”