Today’s Secret Regret

“I regret cheating on my boyfriend. We are in a very committed relationship of two and a half years. Recently, I was drawn in by a coworker and I found him very charismatic and charming. My boyfriend was away for work for about 2 months and I found companionship in my coworker. He paid attention to me, made an effort to talk to me and see me, complimented me and went out of his way to spend Time with me. I knew he only wanted one thing and I should’ve stopped it, but I didn’t. I let it go too far. I kept it a secret from everyone. No one knew except me and him. I tried to read articles about why I shouldn’t tell my boyfriend and they worked for a bit. But it got to The point where reading them didn’t help. Yesterday I couldn’t take the pain I was feeling inside anymore. I felt like I was being weighed down 24/7. I couldn’t eat, sleep, concentrate, anything, which had been going on for weeks. I wrote my boyfriend a note explaining everything. I felt like I NEEDED to give it to him. Before I did so, i broke an agreement I had with myself to tell no one. I told my best friend in the whole world. She revealed to me that she too had been unfaithful in her relationship once. After telling her, I immediately felt lighter. I am no longer dealing with this on my own. I am trying to become a better person. I know this was a one time mistake that will never be repeated. I want to spend the rest of my life with my boyfriend but I know telling him would kill him and devestate him. I have been his first everything, first girlfriend, first sexual partner, first love. And I will never be able to take back the fact I cheated on him for literally no reason. And I will regret it every day of my life.”

22, Female

One thought on “Today’s Secret Regret

  1. I think you made the right decision…AS LONG AS you trust your co-worker to tell no one. As it is, if he knows you aren’t going to tell your boyfriend, he has something to hold over you, and you will continue to live in fear of being found out. Unless the co-worker is also in a committed relationship and doesn’t want his partner to find out; in that case, you’re probably okay. I hope he never tells anyone, and you and your boyfriend make it through this. I tend to think that people who tell on themselves when they cheat do it for themselves, not for their partner. Sure, you’ll feel better, but he’ll feel like shit. If you feel bad, that’s okay. Don’t tell him unless you have to. In time, it will no longer be an issue. Good luck.

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