“I will forever regret not actually leaving when I found out I was pregnant. If I had done that my son would’ve had a better life and so would have I. Even without my parents and his fathers support it would have been better than this. I probably wouldn’t have met you either which has made things even worse. I live everyday just trying to get through to the next and keep up hope that someday things will get better but they don’t and obviously never will. I don’t know why I can’t get u out of my head and my heart when You’ve proven to me that you don’t feel the same towards me. I guess I’m just a big idiot after all. My life certainly shows it to me everyday. I wish I could just go to sleep and not have to go through the motions anymore. I don’t even like who I am anymore. I have changed into a woman I never thought I’d be. Now I know why the world is full of people who only pretend to care when they truly don’t. It’s the only way to achieve happiness I guess.