SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 2, 2018

I regret going to the bar, blacking out and waking up with someone in our bed while you were out of town. In the morning I asked, and we didn’t have sex, but tried. You are the love of my life and I am so stupid for being irresponsible with alcohol. I am going to keep this secret with myself and devote myself to you… Everyone keeps saying that if you cheat there is something wrong with the relationship but there isn’t. I made a stupid mistake and am so ashamed. I am sorry.

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SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: May 1, 2018

I regret that I knew how he felt but thought we could be friends. I regret not going with my instinct and faith and regret letting this man infiltrate what I knew was wrong. I regret thinking that I could make everyone happy. I regret that I had a lapse in judgement at a concert with him but at work if I didn’t give all of my attention he would make my work day hell. I regret that I kept going because I didn’t want to risk my career. I regret that I was caught up in it and let him try to convince me that we were in love. I regret the guilt that I have when I try to back away and he tells me he can’t live life without me. I regret letting him be selfish and pulling me away from what matters. You and me. I regret that I tried multiple times to tell him that he could not have that part of me and he didn’t accept. I am choosing to not let him have that piece of me anymore. I am choosing us again. I never did not choose us. I became so tangled in a web that I could not admit to you because I know your reactions. I am fighting this on my own and know that I will succeed. I choose you. I have asked for forgiveness from my highest power and I just want to move forward from this.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 29, 2018

I regret not listening to my friends and my family, I’m 18 years old and currently a senior in highschool. I am so close to failing my senior year because of some struggles. I was told by some friends that someone was saying I raped them to try and get back at me for not liking them back, my whole school hates me and no one ever talks to me. I am made fun of because I am a bigger guy, or i’m just ugly to people. I regret turning into a drunk, due to all the stress this has given me.. I am nothing but a drunk. 18 and still a senior in highschool, now a drunk because of petty rumors. I have been drinking to get things off my mind, suicide, hate, anger. All of it because it’s a constant thing. I just want to be happy for once? Why can’t I be happy for once.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 28, 2018

I bitterly regret agreeing to have kids. All the things I loved to do & satisfied me are over, I never have the time or money to do them anymore. My wife, who was the one who wanted kids to begin with, used to be so much fun, but after the kids she became a selfish, controlling, bad tempered, abusive alcoholic.

I work all day, then go home to cooking, cleaning, laundry, dishes, music lessons & so on. I never get a break. There’s no rest, no relaxation, no plans for the future. The moment I make one mistake, or try to do something for me, there’s trouble.

Last night I just lost it & gave her a stream of “Fuck you! Ungrateful bitch!” It felt good, but now I don’t want to go home, I just want to be on my own again & not live in a house that looks like a crazy hoarder lives there & constantly battle the crap that she piles up…..piles of crap that, somehow, are my fault too.

I’ve tried counseling, but it always turns into about her feelings & her “reality” & how I have to accommodate that. There’s never any mention of me, I can’t bring up finding piss & shit on the floor when she’s been so fucked up she didn’t make it to the toilet. I can’t bring up her violence & verbal abuse. I can’t talk about what I want out of life.

I’m so fucking done. She used to be so much fun, I felt I could share my deepest thoughts with her. But now anything I say gets filed away in her brain, ready to he turned around, mutated & hurled at me in spite when she gets angry (happens a lot). So now I don’t say a thing.

 

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 27, 2018

When I ended my 6 year engagement, I was in so much pain that I was blinded by the first guy that gave me attention. I didn’t sleep with him, but I did things that I regret. He turned out to be a really bad person, and I would have seen that under normal circumstances. When you are hurting that bad, you don’t always think clearly. You just want something to fill that void you feel so you latch on to the first thing that gives you comfort.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 26, 2018

I regret the way I dealt with the breakdown of my marriage. I met someone while I was still married. I am divorced now but am in this relationship where I feel stuck and bored. It is not how I imagined it and I feel depressed. He has an adult son that cannot (refuses) to learn how to take care of himself and probably will never move out. Because of this I feel that we cannot have a life together how I imagined, i.e. go on vacation together, just us two. I am angry and resentful. I sometimes wish he had a normal kid or no kids at all. F40