I regret not listening to my friends and my family, I’m 18 years old and currently a senior in highschool. I am so close to failing my senior year because of some struggles. I was told by some friends that someone was saying I raped them to try and get back at me for not liking them back, my whole school hates me and no one ever talks to me. I am made fun of because I am a bigger guy, or i’m just ugly to people. I regret turning into a drunk, due to all the stress this has given me.. I am nothing but a drunk. 18 and still a senior in highschool, now a drunk because of petty rumors. I have been drinking to get things off my mind, suicide, hate, anger. All of it because it’s a constant thing. I just want to be happy for once? Why can’t I be happy for once.