My biggest regret was not caring for you the way I should have. I could have cared about you and your life more. I could have loved you and your life more. I put you second when all along you should have been number one no matter what. You are more important then a truck or a snowmobile or material things and what I did by putting you second was not fair. I’ve ruined what could have been a beautiful marriage. I’ve ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me. I could have committed to church with you long ago but I was too stubborn to see that’s what I should have done. Now I sit here all alone wondering what this plan is that God has for me now. I thought the plan was to spend the rest of my life with you, my angel and if that was it and I ruined it I now know I will spend eternity in hell for it. I see it now Buttercup, I love you I will always love you.