I regret my life. I regret that I made more mistakes than not. I regret I worked my fingers to the bone sometimes working two jobs but have nothing to show for it. I regret I put everything into raising two kids as a single mother, two kids who are doing well which I am proud of but who are embarrassed by their poor mother. I regret not taking care of myself at all so i could give them everything. I regret not finishing school so I could have done better for myself. I regret never having been loved ever by anyone. Even the love of parents would have been better than nothing. I regret marrying because I was so starved for love that I made a huge mistake with someone who said they loved me when they didn’t. I regret the fact I am not strong enough to end the pain once and for all. I regret being fat, ugly and unloved. I regret the pain I am in from severe arthritis. Maybe if I had ever taken care of myself i wouldn’t be in this shape. I regret not being able to get my total joint replacements because my job sucks do bad I do not get enough short term disability to live on while off work. I regret even thinking my children would help me, I regret that I even stupidly asked. I regret that everything I did for them was apparently not enough for them to even love me. How could I have been so dumb my entire life. I regret that I don’t know why any of this happened. I regret embarrassing myself by making a go fund me thinking someone would help me when no one ever has. I regret being so unloveable that I don’t even have a friend in my life. I regret still breathing. Even God doesn’t want me.