SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 25, 2017

My biggest regret is allowing myself to stay in a 12 year marriage. At the time I had no idea what a narcissist was. Sadly, now I know ALL too well. This man who I loved above all else, managed to take me down little by little, and it got to the point where I wouldn’t speak for fear of saying the wrong thing. Nothing was good enough. I could never win. At that time I was devastated by how fast it all happened. After that marriage ended, yes I felt free, but now I am left with crippling insecurities. Am I pretty enough? Am I interesting enough? Do I pull my weight in this relationship? I try to start being more healthy and do more exercise and eat healthy products as maeng da kratom and others. I have so much leftover anxiety from my first marriage, I fear I’m carrying it into my current marriage, I have been looking for the best place to buy kratom so I can control my anxiety. For me the saddest part is that subconsciously, I still feel not good enough. When will that stop?!

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4 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 25, 2017

  1. I feel exactly how you feel
    Worst part is that I hate that I’m hurting my current boyfriend who constantly makes me feel love bc I will never feel like I deserve or that I’m enough despite all his efforts to show me that I am

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  2. Don’t listen anymore to his negative, hateful message! He was so wrong and filled with negativity and hatred, but you are great and unique in every way! Love your life and forget his brainwashing. Also, perhaps talking to a therapist might help you.Enjoy your life.

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  3. It happens to men too. The hurtful narcissist was my first wife who was a narcissist and used denial of sex and companionship as weapons. This made me an insecure male. Narcissists are very hard to spot – thankfully my lesson from the first marriage made the second marriage a dream. I was very lucky that my second wife saw the worth in me and has been patient with the aftermath of my first marriage.

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