I regret thinking that being sexually assaulted was my fault. I was out with my friends and I had too much to drink. After house parties and multiple bar hops – I was blacked out. My acquaintance took me to his place, I remember he offered me a glass of water but after I don’t remember really anything . I woke up in his bed and I was fully naked. I was scared and didn’t know what to do. I didn’t have my phone, lost my wallet and my clothes were flung all over the room. He was passed out . I tried to get dressed without him waking up but he did and took me back to my dorm room. He was my friend and he was always nice to me. I felt alone and I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I would still see him out at the bars and he would try to get me to come back with him – the stupid thing is, I did. I felt like a need to make this obviously broken relationship work and somehow it would make me feel better. It didn’t and I was really down about for a long time . But once I realized it was NOT my fault, I blocked him out of my life and never looked back. It was just hard for me to believe that my friend (or so I thought) would do something like that to me. You never think it’s going to happen to you and it’s life alterning when it does. I still find myself not being able to trust people especially guys who start talking to me.