I regret living long enough to post this. My life is in shambles now and there’s nothing that I can do to fix it. I’ve tried everything. I made so many foolish decisions. I lost so many wonderful friendships due to my cold, distant personality. I miss them. None of this can be fixed. I’m lonely, unsuccessful, and severely depressed. I should have given up this battle a long time ago. I regret that I didn’t.