screen-shot-2016-09-23-at-9-10-15-pmI regret leaving my boyfriend of 9 years.

Nothing was wrong in our relationship, we hardly ever fought, we had good times, we had a great life, he was my best friend, my soulmate, we were going to grow old together, happily ever after.

And still, I let myself believe that there was more out there, more passion, someone who would treat me like a princess, marry me and tell me every day I was the best thing ever happened to him.

I fell in love with someone I met online, someone on the other side of the world. I wanted the adventure of living abroad with the love of my life. I left my family, friends and country and have been living abroad for 2 years now. My life is nothing like I imagined. My passionate lover is not passionate at all. He is often depressed and moody, we are irritated with each other a lot. He doesn’t treat me bad, but there is no deeper connection between us at all. The things I thought were wrong in the relationship with my ex look so minor and silly now. There are so many more things wrong in my current relationship. I’m embarrassed to tell my family and friends, they all thought I was going on this big adventure, this romantic fairy tale of moving across the world to be with your destined lover. My posts on Facebook show only the smiles and beautiful moments. People are so happy for me, but nobody knows I often cry myself to sleep. My ex boyfriend found a new girl, I know they have a baby together now. I envy her, she is the luckiest woman in the world. I really hope she treats him well and never leaves him the way I did, he deserves a good and loyal woman.

I just don’t know how I’m going to live my life, growing old, regretting every day that I will never have the life I could have had if I hadn’t been this blind-sighted…

One thought on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 1, 2016

  1. It may well be that this was something you had to do and, had you not, you would be posting a regret about not taking a chance with the passionate person you met online. Rightly or wrongly, I admire the courage you took in making the move. A huge decision! It didn’t work out, but now you know he is not the one for you. Far worse, to grow old wondering what might have been. If your previous relationship was as happy and stable as you suggest, I am puzzled how the online romance took off. You have learned a very hard and valuable lesson that the grass is not always greener. Don’t grow old regretting your decisions, use these experiences to help you make better choices in the future. And don’t feel embarrassed to be open with your family and friends. They would not want you to be miserable. Good luck.


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