I regret hurting my darling little one. Even though many of you might not understand or appreciate the love shared between a pet and their parent, accidentally killing the one you love is the most heart wrenching and horrible moment I have gone through. My father died when I was 13 in a car accident, one of my friends was murdered, my uncles/grandparents/cousins/dogs passed away…but to be the direct cause of pain and subsequent death of someone you love is the most painful guilt and sadness I have experienced in a long time. I don’t know if I can ever forgive myself even though it was a total accident. I would have never hurt you Stella. I loved you more than I can put into words and I am sorry for being careless and hurting you. I had the nightmare that I might hurt you one day…and now I’m living it out and it will haunt me forever.