SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 19, 2016

I regret not telling you that I loved you. I was very young, and you were a bit older than me. I regret the way it ended between us. I missed you so much, I used to drive by your house all the time, but was too afraid to knock on your door. One day I just stopped pexels-photoseeing your car out front. I assumed you’d moved away and I tried to get on with my life. It wasn’t until about a year later that I found out the truth. I deeply regret if our situation had anything to do with your suicide. Evidently you still spoke of me frequently, right up until the end. I had all that time to make things right, but I was too cowardly and proud. I married a really nice man about 5 years ago. I remember wishing it was you on my wedding day. How unfair to my husband! I’ve recently tracked down your grave… I have all the details and a picture. One day I hope to visit it. It’s all so unhealthy and heartbreaking. Forever yours….

2 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: April 19, 2016

  1. OMG this is so me with a few differences. My ex boyfriend of 6 and a half years committed suicide quite some time ago. He was my first love. He was my everything. Everything I have ever wanted. We were supposed to get married after school. He was diagnosed with a mental illness after 6 and a half years of our relationship and it was no longer healthy to stay. A year later he committed suicide. I was his only love. He killed himself on Valentine’s Day in 1991. Now as an adult I realize how much he loved me and it breaks my heart. My biggest regret was breaking up with him. I wish I could have seen him one more time to say all the things I want to say now. He was my soul mate and this is the biggest regret of my like. Just wanted to share to let you and others know that you are not alone. I would give anything to see him one more time. My dreams are the worst because they seem so real and then I wake up.

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    • Wow.I’m the originator of the post. Our stories are soooo similar, it’s spooky. Mine was Feb 15, 2001. It’s funny how as an adult you can see things in a totally different perspective, and that just amplifies the heartbreak. The dreams are the worst, like reliving your pain every time you wake up. Sincere thanks for sharing.

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