SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: February 18, 2016

I regret that back in grade two that I didn’t go to the counselor’s office after lunchtime when my mom had punched in the eye after I sighed from the exhaustion of chewing my salad. Despite this happening several weeks after my teacher 2015_04_Life-of-Pix-free-stock-photos-landscape-Boy-bike-sky-Andreas-Winterbrought in the junior high counselor to my second grade class to inform us that if our parents or anyone was abusing us to report it to them. It was apparent the teacher saw signs of abuse in me, but was still too scared that the school staff would not believe me or do nothing but tell my parents where I could picture clearly in my little second grader’s mind my parents beating, then killing me in retaliation for telling on them.

34 years later, even after burying both parents, and winning half a million dollars in the lottery. I still wish I had taken that chance, maybe I would have been removed and placed into a healthier environment and lead a happier life with coping skills, one that’s been worth living (I’m still waiting for it to get better)

I regret to the point of being obsessed with time travel in wishing it was real.

2 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: February 18, 2016

  1. Let it go…too many Adults hang onto perceived wrongs done to them in childhood. You can let it be your defining moment or your can live your life well. That’s always the best revenge anyway. Especially since you are now financially secure. How lucky you won the lottery.

    Like

  2. I have experience of this. Don’t be too hard on yourself, you were a frightened child. I was very scared of the repercussions that would visit me if my parents’ cruelty had been exposed, so I kept quiet and prayed nightly to God for help.

    There wasn’t the understanding, support or help available to children then, so it was a little easier for these abuses to go unreported.

    On a positive note, my shocking childhood experiences have led me to be very compassionate and understanding towards others. I work in a caring profession, a choice that has helped me come to terms with the realisation that life is tough, frequently unfair and, for some people, very short.

    You are punishing yourself unnecessarily. Seek the pathways that will enable you to find healing and the peace of mind you need. You deserve it. We all do.

    I send you my very best wishes because I truly understand what you have been through.

    Like

Leave a Comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s