SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: January 30, 2016

I let you be my demon. I regret ever letting you into my life and not running away from you the many chances I had. Now it’s 4 years into this and you are disgusting. Love don’t live here. But we have a 2 year old and my oldest son thinks we are a family. So if I leave that means my kids will suffer. You are a cheater, li2015_04_Life-of-Pix-free-stock-photos-kid-boy-bubbles-back-leeroy-copiear and manipulator. You have made me cry so much I felt I was going to die. I have been depressed the majority of our relationship. When I was pregnant I tried to give myself a miscarriage because you left me in our apartment with no food or lights while u cheated. Now we have this BEAUTIFUL dream home together…..and my kids are finally enjoying a normal life. Mom, dad and two brothers…..living a “normal” life. I will never love you. I regret not running while I had the chance….. But its sad to say I am not going to leave because my kids deserve a normal upbringing more than I deserve a good man. They have paid for enough of my mistakes. I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you. But I pray time will make me be used to you…..I’m having an affair with your twin brother in the meantime…..He is the better version of you. He took me to doctor appointments when I was pregnant. Came running in the middle of the night when I was having pain. And we just have an undeniable chemistry. He will always mean something to me, but you; I regret you.

 

4 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: January 30, 2016

  1. you should just leave and be with the twin brother, if you are that unhappy in the relationship.. that isn’t a normal upbringing for your kids.. its a dysfunctional life for them..

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  2. I always hate when I hear people say that they stay for the children. It’s an excuse people use when they fear change. Stop using your children as an excuse for not taking action. Take a chance that your life can be better without your husband and show your children that you are worthy of love and deserve better than what you are settling for. Get yourself in a place where you can be financially stable without your husband. Make changes. Better your life and you will automatically better the life of your children. Just don’t use your children as an excuse to wallow in self-pity because YOU’RE afraid of change.

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  3. When your kids are older and find out that you were sleeping with their uncle because you wanted to give them a “normal childhood”, I hope you understand why they are hurt, horrified, and drowning in guilt. Because you are blaming them for the excuse of not leaving your husband. You kids deserve a parent who puts her self-worth and respect before a nice house, and who knows that teaching by example is worth something, while pretending to be happy when you aren’t is just teaching them to be like you. When your kids are in the same situation, miserable and alone, would you tell them to stay there so your grandkids could have a “normal childhood”? It’s 2016, what isn’t normal is believing that your kids want you miserable, cheating, and lying to them for years because you are a coward who won’t change their lives. You aren’t staying for the kids, you are staying because you fear change and it’s easier to whine than change things. You get what you deserve when you refuse to help yourself. Stop blaming your kids for not leaving your husband, and maybe stop sleeping with his twin because you’re only making your kids lives more confusing and f*cked up. They don’t want an Uncle Daddy, sweetheart.

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  4. Time to take control of your life and end the excuses. You are teaching your kids nothing but how to live an unhappy unfulfilled life with zero accountability for their actions.

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