I let you be my demon. I regret ever letting you into my life and not running away from you the many chances I had. Now it’s 4 years into this and you are disgusting. Love don’t live here. But we have a 2 year old and my oldest son thinks we are a family. So if I leave that means my kids will suffer. You are a cheater, liar and manipulator. You have made me cry so much I felt I was going to die. I have been depressed the majority of our relationship. When I was pregnant I tried to give myself a miscarriage because you left me in our apartment with no food or lights while u cheated. Now we have this BEAUTIFUL dream home together…..and my kids are finally enjoying a normal life. Mom, dad and two brothers…..living a “normal” life. I will never love you. I regret not running while I had the chance….. But its sad to say I am not going to leave because my kids deserve a normal upbringing more than I deserve a good man. They have paid for enough of my mistakes. I don’t hate you, I just don’t like you. But I pray time will make me be used to you…..I’m having an affair with your twin brother in the meantime…..He is the better version of you. He took me to doctor appointments when I was pregnant. Came running in the middle of the night when I was having pain. And we just have an undeniable chemistry. He will always mean something to me, but you; I regret you.