I regret breaking up with the love of my life when I was 29 years old. We had already broken up once and gotten back together after years apart. I really screwed up our second chance. I kicked him out of my apartment, and he left town and moved back home to his parents. Now I am 34 years old, and in a 3 year relationship with a man who loves me and wants to settle down with me, but I don’t love back. I still think about my ex and how amazing he was. Now all I want is to start a family, but don’t want my current boyfriend to be the father to them, I want my ex back. I wish I had focused on spending more quality time with him, and I wish I didn’t push him so hard. I realize now all I did was stress him out because I had just gone through a massive career failure, and I took it all out on him. I should had tried harder to make things work out with him instead of blaming him for my personal problems. I have not been able to love anyone else as deeply, but also want so badly to move on with my life.