I regret leaving my wife for another. I regret ever thinking that I could love another person the way I did her. I regret coming up with fake things to blame her for during our divorce. I regret not sticking through the hard times and being there for her and instead jumping ship the first chance I got. Now I am stuck in a relationship because I know I can never fix what I have done and don’t want to change things again on my children. I dream about her every night and I don’t know what to do. I wish I could go back in time and get my best friend back, and have a better life for my kids. I wish I could tell me ex how I feel but I know it wouldn’t make anything better, but I wish she knew how sorry I was instead of doing everything I can to make her upset her to keep her as far as I can from myself. She is happy now and it would be selfish of me to rock her boat at all when I ruined our lives once already. I have someone who loves me now as well but I will never be happy; just stuck and secretly wishing I was with my ex and had my family back.