SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: December 24, 2015

I regret moving. It’s been 3 years. The Is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about moving. We had sold our home and moved into a tiny rental for 18 months. The plan was to buy land and build. We had a hard time finding land. I missed the way I grew up on 5 acres of land. So I wanted that for my boys. My husband after saying that he wanted land wasn’t on board to take care of it and wanted to buy the small rental that we were in. I did not! What was also driving us to move is that we without knowing move into a school where 80% of the house as around us cost $800,000 or more. We were new to the town. Our neighborhood was the only one with homes at $260,000 or below. The pressure at the elementary school was high and I could already see my son wondering why we didn’t live in what he perceived as a “normal” home. Most ever one of his friends lived in a million dollar or more home. There wasn’t any balance in the school. So I was hoping to move where there was a bit more balance. I regret that too and wonder if that was just my insecurity or if it was a very vallied thought.
Meanwhile my boys missed there beautiful home. I missed our beautiful home. I regret not appreciating that home more. It was brand new. I felt rushed to finally buy a home and get out of the rental before the boys started school. I hate where we are now. The traffic is awful! I went into symptoms of PTSD after we moved in because the man who lived here was explosive at closing and tried to hit our real estate agent because we were asking for things to be repaired at closing. It triggered being abused by my brother as a child. Christmas brings a whole new level of sadness. I miss our other home and what it looked like at Christmas time.

2 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: December 24, 2015

  1. Talk to someone about your PTSD. Maybe this situation was meant to lead you to healing. 3 years is better than 4 or 5 yrs. If there is something you can change, do it now, if not externally, then try to make your home like home as best as you can.

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