I regret reading your emails and finding out you had a tryst although short lived. It broke my heart to read and wondered if it was better that I didn’t know. Now i’m not sure how true you are to me after 8 years of being together through my divorce, your deployment and now your assignment in Europe. How can I look at you now and believe when you say that you love me and that it is I that you want to grow old with? Now I’m wondering if you really are ready to settle down with me. As you lay next to me my heart is screaming WHY?!! I don’t know what to do. i cannot tell you that I know what happened between you and her. I regret that I know now.