I regret not fighting for our marriage. I was fighting my own demons and I so desperately needed your help. I thought you didn’t love me. I was a coward and I walked away without saying goodbye. I was so confused during that time of my life I cannot even recall the detail now. I missed you so terribly, I married the wrong man to try and replace you. I knew he was wrong for me but I hoped against hope that if I tried hard enough all of my dreams would come true. I never loved him as I loved you and I thought that meant he could never hurt me. When he says he doesn’t love me, what hurts isn’t his rejection but that if I had tried half as much in our marriage as this one, today we would be celebrating our 17th wedding anniversary and I would have more than I could ever dream of.