SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: July 4, 2015

I have 3 boys… 17, 15, & 14… My oldest has addiction problems with many of the roughest drugs out there and almost losing him 2yrs prior, my 15yr old has anger issues and was molested at 10yrs old by a former neighbour. Right now he is in temporary care with the Family Children Soceity receiving counselling for that and as well as anger! He had to be removed due to assaulting me twice and his younger brother multiple times. My youngest just seems to float around but does deal with OCD, ADHD, and Socially Anxiety! Otherwise he does pretty good!

There Father was living with me, even though we were separated for a few years! With the kids growing up and even now he is not really there so I play the Mum and Dad role and my own health problems that are quickly failing! I have been fighting and TRYING to help him change his route of drug addiction and severe anger and he blames my Ex and sometimes the things he says to me are very hurtfull and painful to hear!

My regret? I feel like I am the one who has made the mistakes and did SOMETHING wrong! I completly blame myself for their “issues” and problems! I don’t know what to think and how to respond! I have tried to end my life numerous times! I know it’s not the answer but my depression was severe and my health is fading fast!

Any advice will hopefully help…

2 thoughts on “SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: July 4, 2015

  1. Firstly you are not to blame. Being so involved in the situation it’s hard to see the woods from the trees. You need to get counselling or find someone who you can confide in… A lot of the time talking about what’s going on in your life with a professional listener helps put things in a different context

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  2. Thank you!! The 2 younger boys and myself are due to start “mediation counselling” in the next month! My oldest is still a “Missing Persons” since last Saturday (28th) and I am very worried sick about him! Police are actively searching, mainly ones that have dealt with my family on numerous occasions! There have been a few sightings!

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